Then it all happened it was a saturday i was 35 weeks the next day, and i hadnt felt her kick, i was getting really worried, then at about 5 pm she kicked and i thought everything was ok, i didn't realise until the next day that she hadn't kicked again. I did everything i could to get her to move i spoke to her, rubbed my belly, lay down in a quiet room and i still felt nothing. I was begining to panic but i didn't really show it, i rang the hospital and they told me to have a cold drink and ring back in half an hour, i convinced myself she was going to kick, ryan came straight round when i told him and i think thats when i truelly new something was wrong, after half an hour i rang back and they told me to come down, my mam came to pick us up, on the way ryan got a fone call off his nana telling him she had just bought a rocky horse for neive, it was all so surreal. When i got to the hospital i was put in a room and a midwife checked for the heart beat, there wasn't one so she decided to get another machine, again there wasn't a heartbeat, i begged and begged to hear a heartbeat, the midwife then brought a doctor in who said he would scan me, so i went down for a scan and there my baby was with no heartbeat, it still didn't register what had happened, we were back in the room when they told me there was nothing they could do, i told them there was that if they got her out now they could save her. They left me and ryan and we just cried, i have never felt so much pain in my life i just wouldn't believe it was true i kept telling him she was ok, that they were lying and he told me they wern't, it was true our baby who was loved so much before she was even here was dead. The doctor and midwife came back in to tell me the 'procedure' they said i had to give birth to my daughter, they said it would be really quick, i asked if they could give me a c-section as there was no way i could give birth knowing that my baby wasn't going to be alive when she came out, they told me there was no point in this situation and that they couldn't do it. The doctor kept talking about the post mortem and how they will take so much more care in 'my next pregnancy'. I had only just found out my baby had died and they were talking about having another baby, i didn't want another baby i wanted Neive.